What Does My Name Means?

You Are Gracious and Amicable

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.Y ou are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

In search of True Love

Life would not be this beautiful if no one dared to give love, share innermost thoughts, see the presence of his existence and reciprocate that same feeling which gives a man contentment and happiness in his life - just like this man I have known.

Honestly, life for this man has been living a life without feeling this LOVE which he envied in his colleagues. Love was a wonderful thing, he knew.

TRUE LOVE - what did it mean for him? He really didn't understand, he really didn't know. He kept writing and singing songs about LOVE, but he couldn't find it in himself. Foolishness isn't it?

He thought that maybe it was due to the fact that he was born "unwanted" and "unloved." He figured this was why his life was upside down.

He grew up envisioning LOVE as blurred water, stagnant and stinking. "It is nonsense, useless, nothing at all." But even with this feeling of desperation, confusion and hatred, he could not blame his parents or even the people involved in his life. He guessed and believed that "The things given here should remain as they are."

Time, space, days, years, were his final resort, believing that GOD was there for him. The moment of his life he had spent all by himself, carrying the loneliness, fear, and a growing doubt in his intelligence and a capacity to grow and live his life.

In searching for his real identity as a human, he wanted to become a good person who was content with everything he had.

He knew it was not the end of all. There was a time when he was able to recognize what love was; what it should be for a person and how it should be appreciated. It was kind of feeling of which he almost never wanted to get out.

But everything that he went through was just a mere taste of what LOVE was, like the wind. He knew that he had to do something to heal the wounds that he was nursing. He had to help himself, since he was not one of those people in the world who could carry too much burden.

Until now, as he continue searching for this LOVE and the kind of belonging he wanted to have, his loneliness and strangeness as a person hid the immense goodness that he bore.

He decided to live the kind of life he had to the full and enjoy every single part and minute of it. He would no longer worry about the direction of his life in both its rational and irrational natures. For he believed that he could make it. He believed that he could make himself be loved. And he believed that he could love, not just one person, but all of mankind.

If I Believed

I've heard of this song when since I was young. This was Patti Austin's one of the best song ever written and became popular. Way back then, I only used to do humming on its tune because of it's good melody, not noticing that this song has a good meaning and it relates to what i am feeling right now....


If I believed in paradise I'd swear I must be there
I'd swear I must be there right now with you
If I believed in miracles I'd know that one was happening to me
But if I don't believe in paradise
Then miracles aren't real
Then someone tell me what is this I feel

I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
But with you I can't deny
If I believed in paradise I'd swear i'm there

If I believed in magic spells It all would be so clear
'cause magic spells must have brought you here
If I could see the future I'd see if you and I were meant to be
But I dont know any magic
And tomorrow's just a dream
But something in this fantasy is real

I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
I wanna believe it's love this time
I wanna believe my heart's not telling me a lie
But with you I cant deny
If I believed in paradise I'd swear i'm there

I'm there
I'm there
If I believed.

Incarnated

You taught me how to spread
my wing and learn to fly
and i believed in you, so true
I know I'll reach the skies

You flown with me so high
I almost see the whole universe
but then you left me, flying far away
when I said that word you heard

Everything I've learned from you
vanished rushly, so sadly
what I have done wrong to you
I knew I love you honestly

I've fallen deeply in my bluest seas
I drowned and felt deseased
yet intuition risen my buried senses
and wrapped me to turn into a beautiful beast

Phases of my Sorrow

Home.....a place where I should be
feeling the presence of my family
the most perfect thing I ever dreamed of
this was taken away from me

Love.....the innermost feeling I have in me
In my experience of all that is real
exploring the miracle that it might bring
this instead would put me to blame

Friends.....special persons I adored
but inspite of the goodness they had shown
I dwelt particularly on their faults
now they seem have left me alone

Hatred.....something I never wanted to feel
but now most people seem to be false
regretting the loss of all I held dear
this is a burden I know I must bear

Life.....the greatest gift I've ever received
to be cared for and cultivated as best I can
to be learned from much more than is usual
-yet destiny forbids it to be this way

Death.....an event set naturally on time
all leave this world unfortunate or not
gaining an escape from suffocating reality
This, I think is a good remedy

It somehow will end
My phases of sorrow.....

Ghost

First time I saw you
I swore to God
I'd be your man
for the rest of your life

Madly in love with you
I shared my feelings
doing all I could
to make you mine

We talked and laughed
I often felt your presence
I don't know why
It ended all too soon

I want to know you well
I believe you love me too
Instead of the ghost in my heart
I want to see the real you

Sweet Goodbye

I was born with freedom
with love
with talents
with much importance

I took all the chance
to love life
to be happy
to be respected

I reached the dreams
I dreamt of so long
I treasured so much
I sparked on highest space

Just to be someone
who searches for love
who shares what he has
who patiently understands

But things turned unfair
wounding me
breaking me
leaving me in this terrible state

Precious love in my life
dear family
and loyal friends
my dearest hopes, I have left them

I wondered without reasoning
because it isn't me
because it's not my fault
because maybe it's my destiny

Goodbye is my sweetest word
I'll be leaving for peace
I'll be letting go of everything
I'll be staying in eternity

A Simple Recipe of Happiness

Ingredients:

1 "big heart" full of love for self
1 kilo of parent''s Reminders and Advice
1 kilo of "prayer"
4 cups of "hard work"
4 cups of "laughter"
3 cups of "patience"
3 cups of "determination"

Special Seasonings:

Faith
Good Friends
Understanding

Procedures:

1. Combine the ingredients and mix them well. Be sure that there's no spillage among the ingredients.
2. Sprinkle it with Faith, Good Friends, and Understanding. And share it.

Note: Do this recipe everyday. This is good for achieving Happiness.

Broken

I don’t know where I should start,
now that we’re fallen apart.
why thing just happened so fast?
everything is gone with a blast.

Should I blame myself if I’m loving you
so much, coz what I feel for you is true
I’m felling so much pain and I look like a fool
Is there anything that I shouldn’t do?

You told me not to leave on your side,
and I did, and I keep that promise in my heart.
To be with you always, in rain or shine,
share my life with you, to smile and to cry.

You said that I am yours forever,
help me to become myself better.
No matter what it takes, you’ll be there,
and will never leave me coz you care.

I can’t blame you if you’ve changed easily,
but I believe that one day you’ll see,
even you have left me unexpectedly,
I know you still love me, and soon you’ll come back to me…

I still Love Him

Who would ever thought that the person you love so much will go far away and will ask you for some space and time to think…That’s fine with me, coz I understand and I feel the need of him to be alone…

But with that request, a fear for something had began filling up my confused mind…Why?… Why do you need to say those words…I’m then, lost in nowhere…with my eyes in tears…and torn feelings…

He left me alone and find his time for himself, not knowing that with that short span of time, he already had someone new…Then my heart began to feel this unwanted pain…It’s more than what i first felt…

I may know the reason why he left me, yet I have to admit the fact that it’s our fault…1 year of being together but nothing happened…Immaturity, being childish, mood swings….Both of us…No exception…

I can’t say anything…What I know is that I have never love this way before…My love for him is never fake…I Might not be a perfect boyfriend or partner, yet I know that he feels how much I love him…Despite of what happened to us…

…No matter what, I will always be here for him and my family who loves him too…I Still Love Him…my love will never change…I always have this faith that If we are destined together, then we’ll be back with each other’s arms…

I know he still loves me…

bLubOi_rUi .......... still loves me

….I Love You…I’ll Be waitin for You…It might not be today…tomorrow…but when the right time comes…